Signs

Signs that Sago is happy and healthy are she has a very hearty appetite even if vegetables are incorporated into her meals and she looks forward to our morning walks, she's on a playful mode while she stretches her front legs, very excited to step out.

Whilst Sago is more active as she ages, I feel sick on most days and I don't know if it has something to do with being jobless or the side effects of my medications. Sure, my siblings need all the help they can get from doing house chores and they cannot be avoided, but the thing is I feel lazy like most people that's why I have to blog/vlog in order to vent so that I can resume doing house chores. 

I've been single throughout my life with no one to talk to. It does make me crazy and lonely sometimes but what else can I do? It's not that I don't have any option but I'm afraid I won't be able to fulfil my duty as a wife. I'm in the age of retirement, I no longer have the usual energy of the youth. If I became a mother in my younger years, it's time that my children take care of me.  

Maybe I'm saying this because I'm jobless. But having a job would also leave me unsatisfied because of very low wages. Unless we move out or migrate from this country, we have to face this fact. These are the only options, nothing else. But then again we have no idea of the standard of living outside our country; people might be living at a faster pace or there are likewise no jobs available.

Whilst I've been living a life in solitude, I find joy in simple things like tidying up the house then comparing the before and after look, seeing my plants grow after several failed and successful experiments, seeing my family in fine fettle, eating canteen food for breakfast with Sago and seeing her enjoying her daily routine which never changes.